Today we got up about half 7 and started to get ready then realised we haven’t got to go to hospital till 10 instead of 9. Then we went to the train station and met Mandy then got the train to Denmark hill to kings college hospital. i had to have the same two scans as last time i was here. So we was nervous i went and had the heart scan there was a different lady doing my scan but the professor came in near the end had a look , then stopped turned to us again. she said that the problems from last time was still there, that wasn’t a shock to us we new it wouldn’t have gone. But then she said there was something else, the small pipe leading off from the heart wasn’t letting enough of the blood leaving the heart going to the lungs through, so the lungs wasn’t getting enough. This was a worry to me yet again another problem with our poor baby. This also means he will have to have a op as soon as he is born unlike before the professor said it might be after a year he will have a op. It started to panic me . I don’t want to see my new born baby boy all covered in tubes and to think he has to have a op. And be left with scars. He should be with us getting coved in kisses not in an operation. I asked would i be able to stay with him they said yes also he might be in hospital for 10 days to 3 weeks. after all this i went in to another room to have the normal scan to check the rest of him. everything seemed to be going well . i was happy could see my baby boy on the screen by this time he had gone to sleep bless him . He felt the same as mummy and daddy. Very worn out. Then the man doing my scan stood up and said he has to go talk to the consultant, and walked out all i could think was ow no not again is never a good sign, things cant get worse. Can they ? Then he came back in and said you have to come back in two weeks time to have the scan again. We asked why and what was wrong he said my baby’s tummy was to small the rest of him was the right size but his tummy wasn’t. I don’t quiet understand why. He then said next time i might have to talk about having an invasive test were a needle goes into my womb, along with a scan i have never been keen on the idea of this and now im starting to panic. We had to leave and just wait till next time. Its hard to think why all this is happening to my poor baby . I haven’t even been able too meet him yet , I just feel soo sad im supposed to be happy we have a baby boy on the way .
2nd trip up to kings and it just seemed to get worse! What was to lie ahead for my tiny baby ? who i am yet to meet ?
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